Beginnings

I lack the vision
to see into your soul
I desire a transition
to re-enter your world
In our beginning
I had a fresh pair of eyes
After you hurt me
I did the opposite out of spite
As time passed
I met a dream,
he had an edge
that swept me off my feet
Our beginning was beautiful
I never wished for anyone else
Then came the unexplainable
as he put me under a spell
I was brainwashed
As I took on a new personality
My pureness was lost
New situations grew unnerving
Getting help was such a relief
But I'm uncomfortable in my own skin
There's something crawling underneath
filling each vein with sin
Being free of my past trauma
Make me feel even more alone
All the memories though of
turn my heart into stone