Beginning?

Its this the beginning?
its this the start..
for another break of the heart..
i told you i love you..
was that a mistake?
i told you i miss you...oh
why did i do that...
i sent you a email..
asking you of your day...
if your okay...
but you never replyed..
oh god i hope...please god no..
did i ruin it again this time?
oh please not again...
its felt like days..since you last emailed me..
months since we last saw each other..
i guess it was...fun well it lasted..
oh fantastic...another heart break..

when you talk to me..
it feels like my heart broke...
and the pieces are stabbing me..
i just want to run away..
hide and cry and wait for another day..

you hug me..like every things fine..
you ask me how I'm doing...well of course I'm not alright..
of course I'm not fine..
you just broke my heart boy..
god give it some time....
leave me alone please god go away..