How to cure this hurt...

Filled with tears,
filled with hate,
Loving everything,
Destined to fate,

You don't understand,
Though you pretend,
Though we're in love,
Your trust still does bend,

I feel the anger,
Bloating my stomach,
Giving me pains in my head,
I wish this would all stop, fu/ck!

Walking away from all this pain,
Do you see, my darling,
It isn't you, I just plainly hurt,
And I'll trudge on bearing.

I'll try so hard to carry us though,
Even when my smile disappears,
To a minority,
To mascara smudging tears.

I sense you are feeling,
A little pain right now,
From reading this Hell,
I guess you're telling me to stop feeling like this right now,
How?