Emotional battlefield

The bitter and angry side of me
Wants to let you go
But the love I held inside for you
Was deeper then you know

I guess I cannot blame you
I didn't show you very well
But did you even love me?
It's something I cannot tell

I clung to every word you said
I worshiped the ground you walked
But did you even listen
To every time I talked?

I cannot count the tears I've cried
It's more that I can take
I don't know why you cheated
It caused my heart to break

I can't believe you tricked me
You know haunt me in my sleep
The pain I feel is growing
Baby you hurt me deeper then deep

I pretend that I didn't care
Just so I'd stay sane
I told everyone I was fine
So I could cover up the pain

At night the voices haunted me
They teased and tortured too
I prayed so long for the strength
To just get over you

But still my prayers aren't answered
You still own some of my heart
And I know just hearing your voice
Would tear my world apart

You stabbed me in the back
And laughed in my face
I'm falling down further
Now I'm losing this race

I tried to forget you
Tried to put you in the past
But my heart will not let me
So I succumb to being last

You had me crawling desperately
Through an endless maze
I was so lost and lonely
Trying to search through the haze

I never quite got it
Why I loved you so much
But I would have gave up everything
Just to feel your touch

I tried so long to get you back
To have you here with me
But I realized, yeah way too late
It was never meant to be

You left me standing there all alone
With me heart shattered on the ground
I swear that I looked everywhere
But not all the pieces were found

You stole my life away from me
You cut me to the core
You tole me that you loved me
But with that I'm just not sure

I wish I could erase you
Pretend that I don't care
But all the lies you fed me
Are more then I can bare

I knew that there was something wrong
But still I held on tight
And now that I have lost you
I know I'm losing this fight

I look back at what we had
As I finally admit defeat
But one things for certain
I wish I never met you Pete