Nothing is worth this.You will be alive again, you will smile and laugh and love again.I speak from experience(my poems are full of despair and melancholia-but writing is a good release for those emotions).Sometimes love finds us when we are not even looking for it.Sometimes it is so hard to accept the realities of a situation.But there is always tomorrow, always hope.Getting through the rough times makes us stronger.Very well written-honest and heartfelt.I feel your pain and sadness.But things do get better.Hang in there.

Gary Jurechka