Question

Write words for me I can’t think
I’ll steal their songs with my own ink
I want to tell you how I feel
How do I tell you this is real?

I have no talent, none above
And now you won’t let me love
I’m holding on to what I’ve got
Or should I hold what I have not?

Ticking clocks, computers scream
Tell me this is just a dream
I want to wake up let me know
How can I have sunk so low?

If deaths so near then give me life
Lead me far from my own strife
I’ll take me down if this goes on
I won’t wait to see another dawn

I want back but you cannot see
That this is killing me
Tell me how to make it through
Tell me how to stop thinking of you

I want to know I cannot live
If my heart to you I give
I want to know if this is right
If we have a little fight

Could we make it how it was
Please don’t tell me just because
I want to hear it in my heart
That I loved you from the start

Someone tell me what is true
Someone say that “I hate you”
I want to love but I can’t choose
I choose you and then I lose

Break a heart a year goes by
And with all the time I still cry
I wish that I could take it back
Make up for the brains I lack

Learn to find out what is wrong
Teach you how to sing along
Hold me close I will let you down
But I could in turn lift your frown

I can’t see without my eyes
So let out heavy sighs
I want my sister how we were
I don’t want to wind up just like her

I want the one who makes me smile
I want the one who makes worth while
I want you now but you can’t see
Who I love but don’t let it be

I’ll tell you I can’t sleep at night
Knowing that this is not just right
Knowing one is not for me
Hating me for I can’t see

Who are you please call my name
Say you love me, I’ll say the same
But I know you both will call for me
I guess with love there comes a fee

But not the toll of breaking hearts
But I forget how it starts
I say I love you but let me go
When deep inside we both know

That the love will never die
Maybe that’s the reason I begin to cry
Because I know that I love you
And I always knew that it was true

Then why do I love what I have now
I know why but do you know how
It feels to let your first love go
For a family member you don’t know?

I know now I made a mistake
It comes clearer with every breath I take
But can I take back what I have done
Or will that be the eternal sun

That burns my mind and leaves me sore
So I regret it forever more?