That is so crazy, I feel the same way me and my kids dad were together for 8 years, and we recently broke up. He use to get all pissed off when I would ask him those same questions. He was out all the time so I had to know. Sometimes you just have to know, you have to hear it. I understand what you may be going through its hard, hope everything gets better for you. Great poem!

I understand the meaning your conveying