A man not a boy

Like a forgotten past
Like a lost memories
It's almost as if you've lost this
One true feeling.

And there has been others
And their all different from one another.
But this one you just can't quiet
Seem to shake off of you.

Even though another boy is on your mind,
Even though he's giving you all his time
You think to yourself he's a boy but the other is a man

And you want this boy
But you want to BE with this man
And you'd do everything to have him
That you won't do anything for him.

And he is your everyday thought
And he is you face you wake up to every morning even though he is not there.

You convince yourself its not love only a crush
That its only puppy love
But your lips quiver
Your body shakes

So what do you do now?
What happens now
But what happened then?