I hardly remember,
but it feels so real.
Now I vomit after every meal.
And now I slit my wrist in deep,
wanting to fall into a endless sleep.
I`ve been deceived all along,
and now I sing this dreadful song.
Killing till its all gone,
burning everything till its dust.
For my trust has been abused.
And blood lust is now my fuse.
To emotions lost,
and the pounds I`ve shed-ed.
And to my innocence,
long beheaded.
In that room,
I do linger.
As I penetrate my finger.
Down my throat just to sort out,
my desire.
To be thin and admired.
But of course, I`m unnoticed.
Just a ghost nothing more.
Just a w*o*r* nothing less.
Just a mess and nothing greater.
Spite my revealed bones,
I continue to starve alone.
No I shall not return,
to home filled with memories,
in the air.
I`ed rather die in despair.
Why can`t I allow myself,
to be repaired.
Because I`m a liar,
and I betray.
The only ones who look my way.
I deserve to met the fire,
And forever be admired.
