Killing Me

God you are the worst Stephen.
You sit there and say you can never find a girl
That loves you as much as she did.
Yet I have been here longer than she has.
I have been here waiting for you
Ever since you first started getting hurt by her.
I have been the one getting hurt by you
May it be from you never telling me you love me,
Or from you just turning your back on me as a friend
And as a lover I don't exactly know.. But I do know
That for someone that says that they want someone
To love them, you sure as hell don't seem to notice
The one's that have been there all along.
From the start I always liked you
And for some strange reason I still do
And you just don't know how bad it hurts
To lay there in bed every night crying yourself to sleep.
I'm really getting sick and tired of hiding from you
Every time you come over here..
But honestly I'm too afraid to tell you how I really feel about you
I mean I'm sure you already know most of it..
But I would really like to know what would happen
If I just told you everything
Instead of me just typing everything out
Every time I feel like I'm going to explode inside
I wonder what would happen between us if I just
Accidentally sent this too you
Instead of being such a damn chicken and deleting it every time
I hate thinking that everyone else around me was right
When they told me that you were just a loser
But deep down I knew it all along
I just really wish I could get you to notice how much
I truly care about you
And how much I always have and will.

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