The guilt of your grin

I sit here, a silent doll,
with fulfilling tragedies,
i await my faith,
the feeling of life, gripping,
grabbing a hold of me tonight,
I'm trying to make it through,
I'm trying to tell you that i love you,
but when i talk,
you don't listen,
i need it now,
more than ever,
i shall stay a victim hiding under my closet,
trying to find the words to speak,
the tears begin to pour,
they pour like silver rain,
i faint in glory,
to save the one i love,
i see it, i see the guilt of your grin,
i can see it in your eyes,
it lies, and justifies,
your heartless guilt of your grin