HALLOWEEN MADE ME REALIZE THE MISTAKE I HAD DONE

I ONCE MET A GUY,
NO, NO ORDINARY GUY BUT A GUY WITH ALMOST EVERY QUALITY I WISHED FOR.
SWEET, CARING, RESPONSIBLE, AND EXTREMELY FUNNY!
I LIKED HIM BUT AS A BEST FRIEND AND HE ASKED ME OUT.
I ONCE DUMPED HIM BECAUSE MY FEELINGS WEREN'T THE RIGHT ONES BUT NOW MY FEELINGS ARE HAUNTING ME, COMING TO GET ME,
TRYING TO MAKE ME REALIZE THE MISTAKE I HAD DONE,
HAUNTING MY EVERY MOVEMENT BECAUSE OF ONE NIGHT,
A GREAT NIGHT WITH FRIENDS AND THEN... THERE HE WAS.
HALLOWEEN HAD MADE HIM HOTTER THAN I THOUGHT.

A WALK WITH HIM AND MY FRIENDS MADE ME FEEL SOMETHING BUT WHAT WAS IT?
OH HOW I WISHED TO HOLD HIM TIGHT,HOLD HIS HAND...
SOMETHING WAS ABOUT TO COME OUT BUT MY FEAR OF MAKING THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN HELD ME BACK AND TIED ME UP WITH TAPE OVER MY MOUTH.

MOMENTS ARE SWEET, SOUR, HAPPY, SAD...
BUT I FELT A STRONG MOMENT THIS TIME
SOMETHING I HAVEN'T FELT BEFORE
SOMETHING INSIDE CLICKED
SOMETHING CAME OUT
IS IT LOVE? JEALOUSY?
TWO TOTALLY DIFFERENT SUBJECTS IN ONE
I'M SCARED OF BOTH, JEALOUSY AND LOVE...

NO, NOT LOVE BUT A CRUSH THAT ONLY APPEARS WHEN HE'S THERE
HE MAKES EVERYTHING APPEAR COMPLICATED BUT AT THE SAME TIME SWEET.
WAT A GOOF BUT A GOOF I CARE FOR
A BEST FRIEND? A CRUSH?

HOW I HATE US HUMANS...
ALWAYS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING THAT CAN BE LEFT ALONE
THEY'RE SO CURIOUS
BUT I DO ADMIT IT'S TRUE
IT'S TEMPTING...
TEMPTING TO FIGURE OUT.

THE HEART TELLS ALL BUT THIS TIME IT DIDN'T TELL IT WHOLE
IS IT JEALOUSY?
I'M SCARED OF JEALOUSY THE MOST,
A WORD SO SINISTER AND EVIL WHICH I WISH TO ALWAYS BE AWAY FROM.

I NEED HIM THERE ONE MORE TIME
TO FEEL WHAT I FELT THAT NIGHT
TO FEEL BOTH THINGS I'M SCARED OF
JEALOUSY? LOVE?
MAYBE HALLOWEEN WILL CLEAR THE CLOUDS OVER MY HEAD.
LOVE IS SUCH A STRONG WORD....
SO STRONG I FEAR USING IT FOR MYSELF.
I NEED TO BE WITH HIM TO FIND THE ANSWER I'M SEARCHING FOR
I'M SO CONFUSED AND LOST.
A WISE WOMAN ONCE SAID HATRED CAN TURN INTO LOVE,
MAYBE IT'S TRUE...