Dying

Im confused, preoccupied, lost
Am I feeling what i should have last year/
Is this delay's awful cost?

Ive tried so hard, but you wont let me in
Yet you still give me looks that make my heart spin.

Its spinning so fast, its not but a blur.
Why must these feelings in my heart stir?

Ive knocked and knocked, but my knuckles are sore
So Im crying here behind your door

Hoping that youll open up
Cause i wanna be so much more

Im starting to hurt, but why should you care?
You dont like me and youre never there.

So I shall die here, sprawled on your porch
Cause your blindness burned my heart like a torch