Together or Disconnected

I admit it
I foolishly tried to quit it.
I did absolutely everything in my power to move on
and of course, my heart kept holding on
I sat home an entire weekend
I sorted out everything that was running through my mind,
including thoughts of how my ex and I came to an end.
It didn\'t neccesarily upset me
It just made me think of how we were suppose to be.
The next couple days quickly passed by
but every night I ended up in my room crying with nothing left to ask but why.
I stayed strong although everything possible went wrong.
You know how I am,
One of those type of girls who tries everything they can.
Calling him was not an option
I didn\'t wanna hear a word about his addiction.
So you\'re probably wondering why I\'m writing this
and all I can do to answer that is by saying I missed his tender kiss
I have to confess at this time.
Don\'t worry though it\'s not some sort of a crime.
Just one of those things that I had to do.
Again I\'m caught here talking to you.
Okay I called him, the person I was missing most.
It\'s so confusing because I was so friggen close.
I was so close to getting over that guy.
We were done, we had finally said our goodbyes.
Predictable of me, I went crawling back to his arms
I fell back in love, everything got to me including his charm.
I don\'t know what expect
consdering I don\'t even know if he has any love left.
I feel really dumb because the last time I was with him I complained
about it not being fun.
I thought going back to him was something I would abstain from.
but I guess it\'s too late for that though
Too late to second think our past, it happened too long ago.
So what I am doing here?
I\'m just sitting here chewing out your ear.
Once again I\'m gonna apologize
For being the last to realize.
Me and this guy had been through a lot
We argued everyday till our heads became flaming hot
It was about the same old thing, he just wouldn\'t stop smoking pot
I\'m not sure what\'s gonna happen from now until forever
I\'m just hoping that in the end we\'ll be happily together
I know that\'s a lot to ask for
but everyday that goes by I want him more and more
Even though he hasn\'t stopped that bad habit
and everytime I think of him smoking I just can\'t stand it.
I\'ll just roll with the punches, take shit slow.
I don\'t know where this is eventually gonna go.
but please don\'t judge my way of thinking off of this small rhyme
There will be another one, there\'s always a next time
It\'ll be another addition
Go right ahead and make a prediction,
but don\'t be surprised when the end comes out unexpected
You never know if we\'ll be together or disconnected.