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I'm not sure how to explain,
Just exactly how I feel.
It's driving me insane,
But I know this is still reel.

I know you feel it too,
Even after almost two years.
I can't even tell you I love you,
Without putting you in tears.

I know how bad this hurts,
I know that we're both confused.
I know that I made the wrong decision.
And because of that you're heart is bruised.

But it's not yet broken,
I wont let it get that far.
I wont run out again.
I promise I'll heal this scar.

I know you cant forgive me,
At least for right now.
But I still plan on taking that knee.
And making that vow.

I will do anything to prove this to you,
That I can still make everything ok.
Just tell me what I have do.
And it will be done today.

I loved you then,
I still love you now.
I wanna do this again,
And I know you're thinking how?

You still ignite that fire,
That constant burn within my soul.
You can call me a liar,
But without you I'm not whole.

I know its unfair to you,
I'm sorry it took me so long.
But I'm ready to start anew.
We've both just got to be strong.

I can deal with the distance,
I will visit you when I can.
Using the same subsistence.
From which we began.

We can make it through this,
God knows we've been through a lot.
But let me reminisce,
Just in case you forgot.

We overcame the distance,
We fell in love in love rather fast.
And in our existence,
We had a blast.

I held you at night,
Reminded you everything would be ok,
Reminded you we would get married,
And I've thought about that everyday.

We made our future plans.
Never imagined it would end.
Through anything we held hands.
It was our love that no one else could ever comprehend.

It was so strong,
Such an omnipotent force.
And although I did you wrong,
Lets not let this become remorse.

Sunday brunch at East West Bistro.
Thats where it all began.
Where we made it official.
Where I became your man.

Now this is where we are,
Uncertain what comes next.
All that I'm sure of.
Is incredibly perplexed.

But I do love you Jillian,
That much I know is true.
I don't want to go on in this life,
Unless I'm living it with you...

(c) JP 2006