Secrets and Love

I haven't been very honest,
To my baby boy.
The boy that I love,
The boy that brings me joy.

I don't want to admit,
All of the things I have done.
I have a boyfriend now,
But if I tell him I won't have none.

I love him so much,
And I have so much to say.
But I can't say it,
Because it will make him slip away.

The only reason I did it,
Was because I didn't know.
As much as I tried to see,
His feelings didn't show.

They're showing now more than ever,
But I don't know why.
I love this boy to death,
But I'm still living a lie.