Love-hate (harder then i knew)

I'm trying to find the words,
that will speak of how i feel,
I'm trying to find the tears,
that will help me to revile,

the reason why i laugh
the truth behind my lies,
the smile that hides my frown,
and the tears behind my eyes,

i wake up every morning,
with this feeling in my heart,
theres no way that i can have you,
we will just have to be apart,

admitting that i loved you,
that was an easy thing to do,
but now trying to say i didn't,
is harder then i knew..