I really lost you

Everything i did...i did it for you
What i did, what i said, everything
I meant it with all my heart
But when you left me for him
I lost it and couldn't help myself
I really lost you

You did everything to hurt me
To make me disappear
To get rid of me for the rest of your life,
The only real reason you stayed
was because you felt sorry for me
I really lost you

Sure i tried to be your friend,
But i was hoping he would fail
And you would be mine again
I really lost you

You told me he finally had sex with you
My lust took over and i liked it
But afterwords it broke my heart
I was still hoping he would fail
But he didn't
And there i am, in the distance,
Waiting patiently, hoping, wishing
I really lost you

It came close a few times,
Even though i wanted it so badly
My friend side came out to help
And I saved your relationship
Several times from disaster
I really lost you

I thought you would notice my efforts,
Seeing how much i cared for you still
Would make you understand that i wanted to be with you
But it didn't and you stayed with him,
I really lost you

You told me Christmas day that he proposed to you
I was happy for you
But deep down i was heartbroken even worse
I tried to bare it
But after new years day,
You had sex with him again
I really lost you

He said sweet things to you
You loved him that night,
and you told me about it
It broke my heart,
So I'm done, I give up
I will never have you again,
And even if you leave him because of this poem, i cant take you back,
It doesn't feel right anymore,
Having you close to me like we were so long ago doesn't feel right.
I really lost you

So take care Abbey, Ill miss you
And ill never forget you, Don't forget me