REAL LOVE?

I prayed to God above, that one day I could fall in love,
find the girl of my dreams, and for the rest of my life be here with me.
Not knowing that one day that moment could come true,
not knowing that I would fall not for one, but for two.
sitting and thinking, thats what I do all the time,
blaming myself for committing such a crime,
One is crazy, sweet and kind,
the other one tender, sexy and kinda shy,
one fills my empty soul with acts and lovely words,
the other one it's all about kisses and hugs.
I love them both, i don't even know what to say,
I hate myself, more than my heart can explain,
I want to quit, I don't want this to go any far,
but at the same time I don't, I don't want to break their hearts.
I spend nights, crying looking toward the sky,
I just wanted a girl. to be in love, but now I just want to die......