Last chance for her heart

Babygirl, i honestly wish things wouldnt've happened this way. for the longest time i was tryin to be someone im not. i realized me actin like a jerk only shoved you away from me and thats never what i wanted. i wish i didnt have to think or say " if only i woulda done this better " or " If only i hadnt been so arrogant with my actions and words. Not havin you hurts like hell. i do miss you more than anything. i miss your smell, your tiny fingers locked in mine. i miss holding you all throughout the night. your kisses&hugs could heal a dying man. I miss your calls, just the sound of your soft voice lifts me to a place of unexplainable hapiness; but what i guess im sayin is im still in Love with you amanda. I cant throw those 2 years of hopes and dreams away. you\'re my world and i still want to spend my life with you. I want to start a family with you. You wre right when you said \"we\'ll never bet back what we had\" but if we started a complete new, we could have something better. I\'m enlisting tommorrow at 1:00PM. once i sign those papers it\'ll be a different/seperate journey for our lives. I can still be stopped from goin, but thats only if you want me to stay. Stay for waht hope is left and begin that possible new/better happiness together as one. If i dont hear from you by then I\'ll know ive lost and it wasnt meant for me to ever win your heart. My deepest desire is to have you in my arms again. These are my ture feelings from all my heart and soul. I hope to be reunited with you but if not i will still love you more each day holding on to and cherrishing all those wonderful memories of you and i together. Love always,
Justin A. Schroeder