You can't imagine how much I wanted you to be the one.
Everything I feel for you;
all you've ever done for me,
those empty and cold days where I felt alone
and all I could seem to do was cry.
I never thought things would get better.
I never thought I'd actually want to be alive.
I remember clutching a razorblade
slicing down my veins
wishing to be dead.
I remember taking tylenol
using a pain killer to end the pain I felt
forever.
I remember all the days I told myself
no one cared
and how stupid I was for wanting them to.
I remember all the times I told myself
how fat and ugly I was
and how I'd never be pretty to anyone.
I remember hating who I was
and pushing everyone away,
when all I really wanted was for someone to save me
from myself.
Even after everything I've done,
and everyone I've hurt,
you still continue to help me.
I never thought anyone could care about me so much.
I never thought anyone could understand the sadness I felt.
I never believed anyone like you existed.
I never believed I would be lucky enough
to meet someone
like you
in my entire lifetime,
but I truly believe I am blessed to have met someone
like you.
