More often than not
I find I do not understand myself;...
And thus, it amazes me
That someone can....
I can fake a smile...
And you know I am not happy...
I can attempt to laugh...
And you know something is wrong...
I don't know how...
I still cannot fathom as to how you do it....
How can you always see through my mask?...
It works on nearly everyone else...
But it does not work on you...
How?...
And why?....
Why can you not believe my false joy?...
If I tell you what is stabbing me...
Then it will only trouble you...
I don't want you to hurt because of me...
If I had a choice in it at all.....
I would rather take all of your suffering
And amass it with mine...
I would rather bleed than have you bruised....
But for some reason....
You continue to care...
You continue to share my pain....
But why?...
You have always been there for me....
You have always helped me through the darkest
And most dreary of times....
You have always comforted me....
For so long now....
I have wanted to tell you....
You are the reason I still breathe today....
You are the reason I can still laugh....
You are the reason I can still smile.....
But my words have a way of getting lost
When I see you....
"I love you" doesn't seem to explain
What I feel for you....
Saying "Thank you" would
Never be enough for all you have done for me....
And for all you continue to do for me...
Although I know it will not ever
Be enough for all you have done...
Please...I want to tell you...
You have my deepest and most
Sincere gratitude....
When I say "I love you"....
I want you to know....
That I truly mean that...
With all of my heart....
