I wish he would have never left me,
Knowing his gone leaves me a bend.
I messed up i know that,
I messed up what we had & I miss it.
He was the one person who made me feel safe in the world,
But he would hurt me over & over again
He would make me cry continuously each day.
He would cheat, lie, and I couldn\'t trust him.
I fell to fast.
I messed up I know that,
I messed up what we had & I miss it.
Why couldn\'t he be the guy that didn\'t cheat, lie, and was loyal.
Because if he had those three qualities he\'d be the \"perfect guy\".
But lately I\'ve learned theirs no such thing as \"The perfect guy\".
His left such a big whole in my heart
and I don\'t think anything or anyone could replace that,
but him.
I want him out of my head out of my heart,
But he wont go away.
I\'m a mess, I\'ve messed up and I know that.
I\'ve messed up what we had and I miss it.
We would fight 24/7 and he\'d hurt me even more with every word he says, but
I\'d always take him back & I don\'t know why,
Everyday I was with him
I would always wonder if my life
would get any better.
Everyday I was alone I would tare
myself down and wonder why I was with him,
why I wouldn\'t just walk away and forget about him
Forget about everything.
But now as I sit here and write this
I\'ve come to realize why I can\'t
Stop thinking about him...
Because he still has my heart,
I still love this boy.
The more that I see & talk with him the more I know,
that I Love Him and always will.
