Forbidden Love

The more I say
I am still in love
with you, the more
I am wrong. I don't
even remember why
I fell in love with you
in the first place.
I thought you were
someone different, but
it turned out, you were
the same. You let me
fall for u, love you, then
you just decided to cheat
on me and rip my heart out.
Knowing that I would be in
pain for months and never
get over you. Maybe, I am
now but who am I kidding?!
I'll never find the same
kind of love that I found
between us. Everyday I
hope and pray that someday
you'll find a way back to me
and our love. Those days are
getting numbered and I am
starting to lose all faith. On
some nights, I lie wide awake
in my bed and stare up at the
ceiling trying to figure out, what
he is really think about when
I did tell him I Loved Him. Wondering
if we did get back together, will it
be the same as the last time? Will
the love rekindle or just burn right out?
Just maybe, just maybe, we'll find a
new love and forget about each other.
I will go nuts if you did find someone
else and think I wasnt really special
to you or meant nothing to you.
Just a girl, you tricked into loving
you and always will and never give
her another chance. I am just a girl
that will only dream of that happening
and let her mind do the wandering
and find nothing. I'll just keep
wondering..Whenever I see you
my heart skips a beat, like the feeling
is still there but hidden way deep down,
trying to burn that love but it dont work
out that way. I just can't forget about you.
I tried my best to let you go, it doesn't
work. It's like you keep pulling me back
for more, which I don't understand. I am
nothing to you, only a friend. FRIENDS
FRIENDS, God, I get it. I'll never
ever have you back as long as
I live. I don't know what you have done,
but I just can't seem to walk completely
away from you. Our love is Forbidden.

** i wrote this about my ex-bf last night n today he said he loved me still =]]