Unavailable wish

Why cant i pick one ,
just one who will make me happy
one who will accept me for who i am
and not who i pretend to be
can't i be the girl that he wants
can't i be the girl he dreams of
for once can't i be loved by one i love dearly
for once can't i be admired by the one i think of clearly
i feel like i'm making a million mistakes
and it is driving me crazy
making me insane
ignore me ? hate me?
im use to it
for the boy i love is always unreachable
the one i hope for is always impossible
why is it you?
why does it have to be you?
its always the one that i can't get
you are ashamed of me, i don't blame you
maybe you are afraid of liking me
so you can keep your image
i'm just another girl, with an empty heart
waiting for the unavailable wish