Dad

Dad you hurt me can't you see
all the pain you've caused me.

lying still hoping you'll leave
hoping to god this was unseen.

anger building up, tears flowing
through my eyes, but only i could see through your damn lies.

you always wore a mask
so no one could see your face
but only i knew you were fake.

you taunted and teased me
you made me feel ashamed
you got me to lie for you
but i guess thats the price i get paid.

now your gone and is all my fault
i told all the secrets that my heart had withheld.

not knowing why is worse than knowing for not knowing at all hurts now more than ever

i wanted to talk to you
to know how you felt
but all that you gave me
were looks from hell

i miss you, you know
you weren't always bad
you could have got help
and could have stayed around

i need you now more than ever
but no only as my dad