Forever i will love you

Dear boy,
iloveyou with all my insides ,
you make me smile ; but you make me cry .
but i know ill love you till the day i die.
if im with someone else & you get jealous,
dont be cuz you should know i still love you more.
ive been told im going to marry you.
i dont believe it will happen.
cuz i was put on this earth not to be happy ;
& your the only thing that makes me happy,
i just wish i could be happy ; i wish i could smile
knowing someone loves me,
my friends all say they love me when im sad ,
but your the only one who i want to love me.
i just want us to be together.
i know this is stupid & you'll never read this.
and this note isnt going to make a difference ,
but its just something i needed to write ;
and i guess some of my friends are going to read this;
they will most likely ask me about it,
i know my best friends already know i dont want to hear it .
cuz i love you ; theres nothing i can do about it ,
sometimes i dont even want to know you ; but i do .
i like knowing you but i also hate it alot .
i can try and love someone else but it all ends with me still
loving you , i miss hanging out. i miss being with you ;
i think about you all the time . sometimes i just want you to die ,
cause you were being a jerk , but the other times i just want you
to be right beside me telling me you love me .
im head over heals for you . every love qoute i see, reminds me of you .
every love song every love movie reminds me of you ;
theres almost nothing that doesnt.
ive tried to get over you it never seems to work ;
i think of the bad things about you but theres just to many good things .
you complete me ; without you im nothing
i rly do love you with all my insides ; cant you tell ?