The love effect

I don't know what's gotten into me
Life has just gone so wrong,
I can't help but sulk and cry
When I want to smile and be strong.
There you stand with tear filled eyes
And I listen to you cry,
I help you find you're smile again
And you leave me here to die.
I think about how much it hurts
And I cry the oceans deep,
Wanting you to hold me close
Until we fall asleep.

If I hate you with this passion
Why does it hurt inside?
Why is it I can't tell you
All the things it is I hide.
I promise to explain all that I feel
And mean every word I say
I promise to scold you even if I cry
And then just walk away.
I won't speak to you when I see you
I won't answer you're stupid calls,
I won't think about our memories
When I stare at these four walls.

And then it happens: you call
And I can almost see you smile
And all the things I've promised myself
I delay for a while.
But after I hit that knob
And the connection goes away,
I sit and wait till you call again
But today's just another day.
You tell me how special I am
And that I just won't understand
And silly me believes I do
And drifts of too my land.
You tell me I'm so different
And just how much I'm loved,
How many things you'd do for me
Then my feelings are just shoved.
You show me how much you're jealous
Of all the guys I meet,
But does it cost my shattered heart
To see girls grovel at you feet?

I don't think I can take this
I've just been blinded by your lies,
But I still wait and pray and hope
That one day you'd hear my cries.

Copyright © 2006 by Melissa Liew