I hate this

Why am I so lonely
this used to be easy
I can't stand this tranquility.
Picking scabs off my heart
will it ever heal
beating softly in the dark.
I can't stop thinking about you
this sentence is to cold to bare
I don't want to need you.

I miss your arm around my waist
I hate to sleep alone
I'm still craving your taste.
I have to be strong
I just want to make you proud
but this feels wrong.

why can't I see you
I don't understand
they don't have a clue.
I will be alright
survive all day
and scream though the night.

Do you miss me
like i miss you
is this easy?