You Were My First Love (And are going to be my last)

Where do I go from here feeling the way I do
The feelings I have still remain the same, I still love you

I know you don't feel the same and didn't when we were together
I meant what I said when I said i'll love you forever

My feelings just get stronger they don't fade away
And when I do get to talk to you I don't know what to say

All the pain in this world can't be as bad as the pain I go through
All this pain I have is because of me not being with you

I tried being your friend and that doesn't work as you can see
I probably was a better friend when it was just you and me

I know I should just drop this but I can't help myself
And no one needs to tell me I know I need help

I still care as much as I ever did before
Maybe I didn't care enough and should have a little more

I don't know how to express my love when I can't express it to you
And I can't just love another girl like you think I can so what am I suppose to do

This pain I have makes it hard to go through every day
It makes my life hard in every single way

You've given me an opportunity that no other will ever do
You've given me a chance to fall in love with you

I fell in love with the most beautiful girl I know
I guess that's one reason I can't let this go

I don't want to give up on the love I have for you
Every feeling i've ever had has always been true

I don't think i'll date anymore or ever love again
Because after we were through my life felt like a sin

I can't be happy like I pretend to be
I can't do that because it's just not me

I wish I could say exactly how it is I feel
How every time I think of you it gives me cold chills

I think of when I held your hand and wrapped my arms around you
How I would then lean in and whisper I love you

I never expected anything from you except for you to be you
It doesn't matter what you say because I love everything you do

I could go on all day how I feel about this
How I could live forever with just the touch of your kiss

But it's over now and to late to turn back
And I'm sorry about all this I know I can be a nag

I just wish you could see exactly what I feel
How every feeling I've ever felt has always been real

I wish I could tell you in better words than I have like this
But like I said I can't do that I can only wish

I can only wish for us to be together
And can only wish for that to be forever

But it's not that way and I now realize this
It's just hard because it's your love I'm going to miss.

I Love You Megan