Looking back

Watching the clouds roll by,
at night watching the stars as i cry.
am mixed up in whats happend with us.
its something we have to suss
hearing you voice at night, helps me go to sleep with-ought giving up the fight
you held my hand, you washed me down
we gave each other funny frowns!
writing from memories, i have a smile,
But thinking my smile cant be seen by you for miles! Your so far away for me to hold, deep inside it makes me feel cold!
Thinking of you, Makes my emotions turn blue,
you tell me to bend, but am bending till i break!
when i held your hand, i held it slightly but looking back i wish i held it tightly, for letting you go, was enough to put me through,
i act as if you mean nothing to me, when actually your everything you can be to me!
How do i know its true, will there be a clue?
thinking of how many distance miles you are from me, why cant god just let us be! when i look back i think of i could of done better!
thinking now is sending a letter? next time we speak! were gonna be happy at the peak, hold my hand tightly, kiss me so slightly! in never let go of me, as saying goodbye is just gonna make me cry!