I was once forced to love,
Forced to go naked and bleed,
Though my skin was peeled and broken,
My flesh bore no marks of love,
I was inhabited by his bad dream,
Everynight he slept in me,
I was his meat, there for him only,
That was what it was like to be loved,
I always showered afterwards,
But his was an evil that wouldn't wash away,
And it broke me into a million pieces,
You don't realise how I've suffered,
Now my bones have a stillness only I know,
I stayed because,
With such violence came tolerance,
A way to deal with it all,
Now I am sick with what I have dealt with,
I hated him with a passion so deep it almost felt like love.
So here I am now with you,
And because you don't torture or scorn,
I wonder how important I am to you,
And if u even feel lucky to have me.
