Beloved Journal I; Expressing Emotions

I told her my emotions,
Truly, I am scared.
I feel a bit fuzzy inside.
guess wishing, She might be mine?

I decided to take courage
But.. it seems that it shall not matter
She is truly, Intensely better, than me
It would seem that... This, can not be?

I feel sorry for my self i guess
however, I care about her immensely
Although I wish I never told her my emotions...
Regretfully.

(This is free write)