Lost love

I thought you were perfect
Nothing like the others
I thought you were different
At first you did so well
At hiding the real you
Than i stared to feel a change
In the way you talked to me
You lied to me
You hurt me
You made me cry
Even after all that
I find myself staring
Staring at you
Your blue eyes so big and round
brown hair
Your shell necklace
Your smoothe skin on your face
You broke my hart
Is that what you think i deserve
I can't help it
I get goose bumps when your near
and miss you when you aren't
Some days I hate you
Others i love you
I can't trust you
I don't like you
OK maybe I do
But why
After all the mean things you did
I still love you

This was at the end of my friendship with my first real love