They sit on the porch swing.
No words are said.
He just looks to his right,
and sees his first love staring back at him.
She lowers her head,
Eyes filled with tears,
Breaks the silence..
This growing up stuff isn't fair
He says; I don't really want to go,
I don't want to leave this here unfinished
[So that's why you're going
to break my heart] she thinks.
He plants a kiss on her forehead.
And says, this is what I've gotta do
"I understand" she said...knowing
he could see right through..
Her smile, and the unsure laugh.
So he wraps his arms around her tight.
Tries to take away the pain.
But that'll never happen.
She doesn't want to be alone.
But he needs to be.
She doesn't want to give up.
but he does.
she says goodbye,
doesn't let him see her cry.
all the while,
she's falling apart.
she walks away,
and doesn't look back.
knowing he's doing the same.
for the last time.
she waits.
she goes home.
she sits alone.
and breaks down.
he flies..
across the world.
he lives. he loves.
he leaves.
..3 months later.
she still can't get it together.
what about all the promises?
she's still holding on to what's not there.
