My heart is filled with love and joy,
for this one special boy.
I used to think that he was perfect.
Now I debate whether he's even worth it.
I mean I really really love this boy,
But I feel like I'm his little toy.
For a while I was his pride,
& now I'm just carelessly thrown to the side.
I used to think this love would last.
Now I wonder if it's a thing of the past.
I miss him more & more each day.
I wonder how long he's going to stay.
Day by day the thought lingering in my mind.
That we may be running out of time.
I wonder if it's time to say goodbye,
But then I realize I would rather die.
This boy is worth all of my pain,
Even if all my happiness he does drain.
Maybe my expectations are held too high.
It would be unfair of me to say goodbye.
Sometimes in life the little wonders,
Make up for all the hurt and blunders.
