Solitary man

You turn and say I wish I was perfect,
You say you wish you where less than nine stone light.
I think you are perfect,
I think you look wonderful tonight.

But you are someone else's,
You're not mine,
I'm angry and bitter
A soul in decline.
I'm drenched in pain.
Maybe it's my genetic design.
But for you my friend I walk the line.

IL end up dead and ill lie alone.
Wish you could have reached out your hand
Loved me truly.
Saved me from misery.
Understood who I was, been a bit wiser.
But that's not you.
And i'm no longer me!

I try too cry but the pain is stopping the tears.
I can't release all this pain.
I can't rid of my fears.
I hid in solitary.
A solitary man is unknown.
I lived in insecurity.
Insecurity won't leave a man alone

You're such a social being,
You want too wanted by everyone,
Loved by everyone
But I can not be everyone,
I can't be what I need too be
Yet I try giving you everything,
I try too hard!
When I exit don't ever believe you
Where easy too discard.

But in heaven we will meet by then you will no longer care.
Maybe you will have forgotten who I am.
Remembering the face, but the soul is tortured blackened in despair.