I Want Him To Be...

Why is that, when I finally find happiness,
My mind just becomes one big mess.

What am I scared of,
Is it falling in love?

I don't understand why I feel this way,
No understanding, and nothing to say.

I want to love him, I really do,
You may not believe me but it's true.

Is it that, I've been hurt so bad once,
That a part of me can't love with this part of Me's absence.

What is holding me back,
From this Jill's Jack.

I want him to be my one and only,
But by the end of the day I feel so lonely.

I want him to be that man for me,
And I want to believe its meant to be.

My mind tells me one thing, and my heart another,
Why can't they just think together?

I go on day after day,
With the same old things to say.

Going on everyday telling him I love him,
Forgetting lying can be a deadly sin.

I don't want to hurt this boy that means so much to me,
But my heart is slowly breaking, can't they see.

I want him to be the one I give my heart to,
I want to scream out loud I Love You, and it be true..

I want him to be,
The one for me,
But it just isn't meant to be,
Can't they see...