I lost him

It all started
4 months ago
we were talking on the phone
I think thats when
the feelings started to show

We talked for hours
for hours than on
i started to like you
Big daddy Sean

The next day
I couldn't stop thinking about you
but I wanted to be with you though
Thats all i knew

Than we started to date
It was so silly
Our relationship felt so fake

I ended up dumping you
For reasons we both thought right
Than after wards
I didn't think my decision was so bright

I called you up
and told you I didn't want it
we didn't get back together
we just try-ed to make things better

Than i saw you on Halloween
You held my waist
boy did that make my heart race

It was 3 weeks
before we again started dating
Now that i was with you,
i didn't mind the waiting

All of a sudden
you started to change
you started to lie
started to act strange

We started to bicker
get mad and fight
Although it wasn't your fault
it was mine,I never did anything right

So i went with another guy
I did things I shouldn't do
although the whole time I was with him
I thought about you

I ended up breaking up with you
thinking I would be alright
now I dint have you
and I don't think my decision was right.

We dated 2 months
and 3 weeks
I guess thats when I fell in love
You were more than i could've thought of

I called and told you
I made a mistake
I started to cry
and began to shake

What you told me
was not what I wanted to hear
you told me you wouldn't take me back
You made it clear

I know I made a mistake
A big one at that
I dint care about the pot or lies
I just want you back

I'm sorry for what i did
I cant even explain
I just want to be with you again
All I have now is the pain

* Poem I wrote when i lost "him"