I lost the one I really loved and cared for

I fell in love with a guy I really loved and cared for. He told me how he liked me a lot and he wanted to date, but he told me to wait, so I told him I would wait as long as I had to, to get in a relationship with him. It had been 3 weeks and I was tired of waiting for him, but I still hung on. Things started out great and then got worse, things only got worse because he started messing around with another girl. That hurt me a lot but I still kept trying because I knew I loved him.

Then it got worse and worse, and then I found out that he was scared to tell me the truth that is why he kept putting me to the side and making me wait, he was scared to tell me because he didn't want to break my heart. I called him and told him that it would be ok, and I would get over it sooner or later...and when he told me he wanted to just keep our close friendship, I cried for hours because it was a big loss to me because I knew how much I loved him and cared for him.

It still truly hurts inside but on the outside we have a very close relationship. Still to this day I don't understand why but, I have to move on with my life even though that was not what I planned to happen. I wanted to be the one he hugged, kissed, cared for, and thought about me all the time like I think about him, but it didn't happen he turned me down for another girl...but I can't regret that because we still have a lot more time in life to decide if we want to be together, and we still have a very close friendship.

I still look back and say to my-self why did I waste my time on him? I did because I loved him and I thought he loved me back. Let me face it I wasted a lot of time on him and now that my heart is toren into many pieces I still sit here and say to my-self will he ever give me a chance? I think he might that is why I sit here and wait for him... because I can't move on without him:(