I love you baby

I can feel the darkness swelling up within me
Its like a cancer, it never really goes away no matter how bad you want it to
I can't help but to stare at the pain I caused my self so long ago
And I can't help but to wonder what will happen if I do it again
Will this pain ever stop?

I know it won't but baby please don't let me do it again
I love you and I don't want to
But baby sometimes I get scared
And sometimes I think about it
And sometimes I think it's what I really want

But then I think about you baby
And I think about how you able to talk me out of it every time
And I think about our life after college
And I decide its not worth it
I decide nothing is worth throwing our life away

I love you baby and I always will
And know that im still here because of you
And know that no matter what I used to do it won't happen again
Because I couldn't put you through that pain, not again, not ever again

So know that you don't have to worry about me
And know that I will be just fine
And know baby that you will always be only mine