SoMeTiMeS i WiSh

Sometimes i wish i would just go crazy.Maybe that way
being insanely lost I wouldn't know what's going on in the world.Maybe being madly crazed I would live in a world of happiness.To imagine myself in a world of fairlytale gardens and endless rivers, a place where I wouldn't feel love much less hurt from it,but that place doesnt exist.

Sometimes I wish I could go to sleep and never wake~up. A place where I wouldn't hurt for memories that kill me to remember.Things that drove me mad,things that crazied me far past this world. I'd wish to fall into a deep sleep but,even if I could I wouldn't escape what im trying to run away from.LoVe. I'd runaway in hopes that I would never again let my heart feel as if I've tried to fall in love and in doing so I've done it with my heart in my hand and time after time it's been slapped out of my hands onto the ground.

Now it's too dirty,too covered in filth,just dust off and simply put back into myself. You know, It seems to never heal after being stabbed my loves fevered needle. Even if I could be so lost I wouldn't want to feel the lonely beat in my heart and it would all come down to the same thing. I see in time running away from that pain of being so lonely and in another running towards it.