Mixed Emotions

I love you.
I truly love you.

But..

a part of me is missing.
a piece that was once there, but now has gone.

the part of me that used to have fun.
the part of me that enjoyed to flirt;
where everything i did i didn't have to
rationalize things, and think about it.
the part of me where i could be myself.

i love you.
i truly love you.

but i sometimes wonder if your holding me back.
that its your own insecurities that is holding 'us' back.

i want to be able to go to a party and not have to worry
about the way i look at someone and not have to worry
about what i say.

i want you to be able to trust me.
without trust, we have nothing.

i feel that we are getting closer and closer to nothing.

yet, i love you so incredibly much.