Only one

All i feel now isn't happiness
but loneliness
i tried to erase our memories
even the one about our first kiss

seems like it isn't working
but i don't know how to love you again
maybe we can become one
if we start out again as friends

we can just pretend that all this never happened
and that it was a dream
but i was only wishing to myself
now you're with her instead of me

you aren't really worth it
but how did i accept your lies once more
i know i hate you
but you are still the only one i adore