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How can I be,

happier than I've ever been,

yet feel more lonely,

than i did back then.

Way back when i had no shoulder to cry on,

loved ones just told me to stay strong.

Back when i didn't need someone to rely on,

now i just can't find where i belong.

It's hard to believe,

that the weak person watching me through the mirror,

at one time could deceive,

everyone into thinking that she was so sure.

No one can breath, no one can see,

the hurts that chained me behind bars.

They might as well, leave me to rot in agony,

because they can't mend my scars.

No one can taste, no one can feel,

what makes me make the choices that i do.

because everyone has lost there sense of whats real,

and of everything good they once knew.

I'm tired of watching old friends change,

to comply with the norm of a world that's deranged.

observing in disgust the way their false facades are portrayed,

knowing they are my reflection as I begin to fade.

Finally, as the curtains begin to draw,

I smile knowing that everything was made clear.

What i wanted them to see, they saw,

They are no longer numb, There is nothing left to fear.