AM I DOiNg SOmEtHinG WrOnG?

Am I doing something wrong?
Please someone tell me,
I'm starting to be happy again, and it has been so long,
I feel bad, but I wish people would let me be.

Every time something starts going right,
It gets messed up because of something,
Its going to again, I feel it might,
To people, hurt is all I bring.

Sitting here waiting, sitting here thinking,
Don't know what I am going to be told,
Feeling like I am sinking,
Though I said, these feelings I wouldn't hold.

Someone I have known for a short time,
Someone who makes me feel like this is right,
Truth comes out, and I feel like I am committing a crime,
Five years of friendship, with her I don't want to fight.

Told her I wouldn't do anything to hurt her,
I don't want to ruin what I have, for something that has only begun,
Things need to go back to the way they were,
Want to be happy, have fun, I am still so young.

Wish there was someone that I could talk to,
But everyone is probably against this,
I wish people would know what I always go through,
I guess I don't understand, what is wrong with ONE kiss?