Couldn't Hate You

We were only friends
You told me every day
I wanted to be more
But I would never say

I cried myself to sleep
Just thinking of your face
You said we'd stay together
and someday leave this place

But then you met that girl
and my life was turned around
but you never knew I loved you
Because I'd never make a sound

Never protest
to the pain you put me through
I'd always blame myself
and keep on loving you

You'd break my heart again and again
Then leave me all alone
But I would hide my tears
and wait beside the phone

For the call I knew would never come
The love I'd never get
This time I couldn't fake a smile
could not disguise my fret

I was still in love with you
But you chose someone else
Yet still, I couldn't hate you
But I could hate myself