Cheating fears

I love him, i do
but I'm still unsure
the trust isn't there
i still need more

i want to trust him
its just not fair
my heart keeps breaking
and I'm left in despair

i hate what he did
but it is in our past
still cant help wondering
how long it will last

hes big brown eyes
tell a story of pain
a life of being mislead
putting us on a strain

why was he tempted
what did i do wrong
all i did was love him
he lied for so long

I'm trying to forget
just move on for a while
but sometimes its hard
and i forget to smile

he believes every things fine
but I'm not so sure
I'm still so confused
what if theres more

how can i be sure
that my heart wont be broken
leaving me with tears
and words unspoken

i guess there is no answer
you cant ever know
love is a risk
and it can sink so low

so for know i'll just smile
of this poem i wont speak
and ill continue on in love
until i grow to weak