Afraid of Devotion

Striving for greatness
but destined to fail
Reaching for heaven
while living in hell
Anxious to take
but dont want to give
Fearful of dying but
havent yet lived
Want to lay in the sun
but a creature of the night
Keeps doing wrong but
wants to do right
Trying to stay young
but feeling so old
A warm person at heart
but comes across cold
Has it together but
falling apart
Ready to finish but
has yet to start
Living a life
doing nothing but dying
Keeping a smile but
at the same time criyng
Wanting it all but
has just a bit
Desperate to stop banging and smoking
but cant seem to quit
Happy here
but wants to be there
Running in place
but getting no where
Craving the drugs
trying to refrain feeling just great when
really in pain
Keeping a promise
feelings so torn
Proud of ones self
an two feeling scorn
Thinking no one cares
but sending concern
Don't worry its cool
but the flame still burns
Feeling so lonely
but afraid of devotion
Wants to love openly
but can't show emotion.