Lost but Forgiving Love

Life get's so messed up and so crazy Im telling you life aint right.
I know that this will be the hardest poem for me to have to write
I tryed so hard to keep you and not let you go but the lord wanted his angel back.
And im sitting alone writing on paper, and my emotions is being attacked.

If I knew the lord was going to take you so soone there are so many things I would of done.
So many things I would of said so many places we would run.
I feel like I didn't say I love you enough or showed it like I could.
I feel i didnt hold you enough, or confort you like I should.

It just happen so quick it just happen so fast ,"Lord you know this was wrong".
My emotions is just starting to catch up with the reality that shes gone.
Lord you gave me someone great and im thankful, I give you a thousands Praise.
But you took them so soon , only to tease me,now im feeling a millon phases.

Hurt betrayed,regret upset,and frustration is all going though my mind.
Lord I never been the one to qustistion your plan but why couldn't you leave them behind.
I know I have to start over and began again and my mind have to reset.
But sometimes the only things you can remeber is the things you want to forget.

Now I know everything happens for a reason rather we win or fail.
Sometimes in order to experience true joy we have to go though a little hell.
Forgive me lord for suggesting that this is your fault,when this is just your plans.
Because nomatter what we may go though in life, it will always be in your hands.